Tuesday, October 6, 2015

In Limbo

What a summer/fall it's been.

Three birthdays, my daughter turned 33, my son - 21, my gosh, seems like I was just going to his t-ball games, and  I turned 57 in September.  What! How?  I don't even know what to think about that.
I finally grew my hair out to a style I'm actually happy with, particularly the gray streaks.  No more layers, all one length, bob.  I would have never guessed I would go there, but it works.  It only took  me 57 years to figure it out.

My middle daughter had a very large fibroid removed in a 4 hour surgery that scared the hell outta me.  She was off work for a month after that and needed help with, well, everything. Three months before the surgery they gave her a shot of Lupron (to help shrink the tumor before they operate) which temporarily shuts down all production of estrogen. She was thrown into menopause within a few days.  Meanwhile I have been cutting down on my estrogen dosage to eventually get off it altogether, and so the mother/daughter hot flash, cranky pants team was born. What a scene.  It's times like this that I'm really grateful I don't have to work.

I have been reading and reading and reading. I can't seem to get enough lately.  First,  Mrs. Poe, then this series, which is Young Adult, but really good, followed by All the Light We Cannot See (sooo well written) and now The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah.

My Mom went in for a relatively low risk outpatient procedure that turned into a nightmare.  The last few weeks we have been running back and forth to the ER, and three surgeries later she is now in ICU.  She's 78, and pretty tough, but it has taken a toll on her.  We just want her home.  Hell, I'd settle for a coherent conversation with her at this point, where she's not heavily medicated and doesn't think it's 1958.  It's weird, I keep thinking "I need to call Mom and talk to her about everything that's going on" but, then I catch myself. Sigh.

So you can see why I've been away for a while.  I'm still here lurking around the edges of blog land, reading your blogs, tying to remain inspired, but just not motivated to work on my sewing.
Before all the above happened, I managed to add some borders to my Tulip quilt, which is basted and ready for hand quilting.  Not much else, although I picked up a ball of Paton's wool yesterday and started to crochet row after row after row in moss stitch.  Simple, meditative, and repetitive.  Healing.
Maybe it will become a blanket for my Mom to snuggle with when she gets out of the hospital.

Thanks for listening.

Me and Mom, heading to a concert in 2012


  1. Sorry to hear your family have not been well, its not nice when a family member is ill. I hope everything goes back to normal for all of you all soon, and you look after yourself x

  2. Oh it definitely sounds like tough times. Good that your family seems to bond together and try to help each other through. The quilting/doing can wait until your mind catches up. Right now you're concentrating on the important stuff.:)

  3. You look just like your mom! Times like these are rough. Keep crocheting.

  4. Oh, wow, what a plate full you have! Praying for a quick turnaround for you all, and strength, peace, and comfort! (Love your tulip quilt!)

  5. Hope your Mom (and sweet girl) are on the road to recovery....this definitely is not a summer to remember fondly. Autumn will be better!! Yarn and fabric help make things a teeny bit better ♥♥

  6. Oh dear, far too many bad things happening all at once. I hope your mother and daughter recover quickly and without further complications. Hang in there and keep reading and crocheting. Things have a way of working themselves out, it just never seems that it will happen while you're in the middle of it all. Take good care (of yourself).

  7. Oh, Lynne...I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. I know it's hard. I'll be thinking of you and her and saying little prayers that she gets better and back to her old self very soon. Hugs.

  8. Oh , Lynne....you really needed that break from blogging. When it rains, it pours! I'm continuing my prayers for you and your family. But how dear and precious your thoughts about needing to talk to your mom about everything. I pray for the blessing of strength, health and peace over all of you!

  9. We will listen anytime my friend, so much on your plate these past few months. Your poor daughter, and Mother and you have to keep it all together. I am glad you are loving your hair, my gray streak is getting bigger every day. And my oldest will be 22 at the end of the month! I can't believe it.
    Hugs to you and take good care of you!

  10. Lynne, what a rough go you've had. My old granny would say you've really been through the wringer. I'm sending love for peace and healing. Thinking of you. Keep crocheting. xoxoxo

  11. Oh Lynne, what a rough time - hope things improve and everyone gets better xxx

  12. So scary ! I hope your Mom recovers soon and you and your daughter both feel better as well. My goodness, that is a lot to have happen in your family. I am sending blessings and prayers to you and yours.


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